My mom leaned against my Dad’s gray casket and cried tears I don’t think I have ever heard before. My siblings and I made our final words, and as I watched the casket being dropped down. I realized this was it - I felt so close to death and it was so intense, I remember the branches in the dirt to the detail.
I will never forget what my mom said to my dad “…When its my time, come get me in the yellow VW bus…”
Love my family and RIP Dad.
January 25, 2010, 10:40pm Comments
My Dad was just diagnosed with advanced throat/larynx cancer. He has a 20% chance of survival based on what Doctors have discussed with him. If he does go through surgery his life will change forever, he will have to use a feeding tube and will no longer be able to speak. The chance of survival with these changes, along with the cancer recurring is 80% unlikely after 5 years.
Throat/Larynx Cancer is 10x more likely to occur in men, with signs like a common cold. You should get checked regularly especially if you are in your 40’s-50’s.
I was afraid of ever using this blog to share how sad I would feel about a break up, loss, bad day, etc…But I can’t hide how I feel from my readers, friends, and family, I’m distraught…I can barely think of anything else but my poor mother, my brother, and sister and the thoughts that must be in my Dad’s head.
Finally, this was incredible unexpected and I want to remind everyone how life is so precious…Live your truth, love your life, be you…Especially remember to celebrate the people in your life that you may over shadow with the smaller things.
The one thing I will miss the most from my Dad is his dry sense of humor and caring heart. He could make a joke with out breaking a smile and was always there when I needed him with exactly what I needed to hear.
I love everyone and I hope you share this story of cancer and how important and effecting it is on family.
Love you Dad!
B
November 25, 2009, 6:54pm Comments
